I feel a little better now. I have been so bad this weekend. After a great loss this week, I rewarded myself with food. Now I feel so bloated, sad and disappointed in myself. Why did I allow myself do this? I know why, I felt good that I lost a few pounds, but am so scared to weigh in again, because I may gain an pound back. So if I'm going to gain a pound, I'd mind as well enjoy the food that goes in me. I am so scared of weigh in days. I have it drilled in my head that I have to lose, and I'm so afraid of failing myself. I've done it so many times before, that I throw in the towel and don't care anymore. I've only gave it a week, only a week. Come on Angie, get you $hi% together. I won't be able to fulfill my goals if I don't get it together. Why, do I do this to myself.
I'm writing this at 9 o'clock at night. Getting ready to head to bed, and know that tomorrow is a new day, and that I really need to love myself if I really want to change me.